Over the past eighteen years of my life I have made a lot of mistakes and dug myself some pretty holes. I’v learned a lot and pushed a lot aside do to my ignorance.
Right now I’m probably about as low as it gets. I know I have a lot of work ahead of me to get where I want to be. Luckily want and need are vastly different things. Because as much as things can get me down they haven’t taken away the things I need, my friends, family, girlfriend, the roof over my head etc… And for that I am eternally thankful.
I am ready to make some real changes in my life, Though I have yet to comprehend exactly what that initials. I wish I could just drop all my responsibilities for a week or two and runaway to the beach. I just need sometime away, to clear my head, to relax, to come up with a plan and direction for my life.
Maybe I need to rethink my “carefree” life style. This erks my though, as my “carefree life style” is on of the few things i’v always been sure about. Now I just don’t know, but at any rate I’ve got a lot of contemplating ahead of me.
All I know is my girlfriend is the most important thing in my life and my decisions affect her greatly. So far I feel i’v only managed to make things worse and that has to change. I just want is to see her happy. I guess thats my start, now I just have to figure out the rest.
I’m out -Bradley
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